unsymphonic happiness ;;

mood ;; half fangirling, half disappointed
music ;; keep the faith - KAT-TUN
day's addiction ;; downloading all versions of real face

breakfast ;; honey stars && milk
lunch ;; char siu pao
dinner ;; nothing yet

after a whole week of fangirling, i've decided to post again. delay? YES. omgsh, i forgot my password when i went to log in cause blogspot was being horrible and decided to FORGET that i was logged in. that was like, two days ago. and today i went to check again, and wahhh~ it works. psh.

anyway, joycie got her own blog~! waaaai~! so afterr this, i'll link her in my friends section at the side there. the only think left to do is get erynny a blog, then the whole himitsu club will be listed there. but of course, its like...fictional. a fictional story if eryn were to get one. she's too into her kinda soft fangirling to get a blog. ahahaha!! that's eryn for you :]

we had the math test thing on..wens? was it really only wens? tonikaku. OMGSH I DID SO BAD. imho, anyway. cause yea, the percentage was easy enough, at least i got them all down. but the algebra section? GIVE ME A BREAK. it was sooo hard. i missed like five questions! its like you just do all the working out, and by the end, you're completely stuck! it so sucks to be me right now. i can't remember what i got for the test. around 40ish i think. ugghh.

what stopped me from studying the night before the test was worth it though. hahahaha! i fangirled the whole night away, just watching cartoon kat-tun <3>

during the week, i found myself thinking "zomgsh, what if i really do meet kat-tun someday?" sure sure, theres like a 0% chance, or at least, a 0.111% chance, but there's still that .111% right? ahahah. but i know, if i was on cartoon kat-tun, and i did the hyakuQ thing, if they asked me 'what was my childhood dream' kinda thing, i'd either say 'ninja', or 'to hug akanishi'. AHAHAHA. if only one day, the himitsu club made it big and became idols. omgsh, even less chance, -sigh-

but it is nice to dream right? eryn wants to be surrounded by chinen, yuto and ryosuke. so she dreams. joyce wants to meet yunho. she's dreaming too. i want to hug akanishi. dream....maybe. ahaha, its soooo nice to dream. and while you're dreaming, its like 'what if it really happens?!' then you get all excited? people who know that feeling really understand me :]

yesterday, eryn was absent from school, right? so joyce and i were eating, and talking about the fight we had last time eryn was absent, which was last year during exam time, when she had her piano exam, ithink. and so joyce and i were wondering if we could fight again this time. its nice to fight with each other sometimes, but we can only really do it if eryn's not at school. she's like the peace wall between us. so when we need to release tension, joyce and me have to be alone. :]

funny how she was absent though, cause last week i was wondering when she'd next be away. you knowww..since joyce and i haven't fought in a while. maybe its strange to some others that we like fighting. but i think its healthy for us. building character or something. but it was bad!!! joyce and i couldn't think of ANYTHING to fight about. we talked about all the subjects we usually do when eryn's not around, but we still didn't have a conflict. UNTIL JAP. when we saw the creepy thing that made me tease her, and got her semi-angry. ahahahaha, ageru ne~?

but its okay when we fight, because we know that we only ever half mean it. even when fighting with qian and elain or eryn, no one ever means it. its because we're the himitsu club. no one can defeat us! not even each other! but our fangirling ways will be the death of us, i bet. not a horrible way to move on though, right?

ooh. today, i was downloading subbed versions of real face. all of them. i got kame's yesterday, then when i woke up, i got koki, ueda, junno and nakamaru's versions, since i already have akanishi's. but then i'm like 'i want akanishi's version too, because its subbed.' i know its a little silly to download it again just because this one has subs, but i'm a fangirl. no cure. so i went to dl his, and megaupload comes up with "YOU HAVE DOWNLOADED TOO MUCH. TRY AGAIN IN TWO HOURS" not the exact wording, but you get my point. so i stare at the screen and its like "DON DAKE?!" wtf man! srsly!

ugh. that's just what put me into a not so great mood. but its okay. i'm kinda patient. i'll wait. i also got the PV of Hey! Say! by HS7. I managed to get ahold of Ultra music power by HSJUMP as well, but its split into two parts, and hj split isn't helping me out. i might just ask eryn for the video clip, to save me time and bandwidth.

re reading what i just wrote, why is it that most of this post is about fangirling? i should just save this for my LJ or something. better yet, make an art journal and upload it on my DA. speaking of which, i haven't updated that in ages. zenny's drawings are lovely as always, as are his friends'. his style is sooooo nice. makes me happy, it does. i'll link you all there someday. after i get his permission, of course.

btw, ling's a pedo bear. last night, the piano group decided to hold a convo. me, val, ling, ellainne and cassie. teng was half there, talking through ling. i was reading some ff's, so i was only throwing in my 2 cents every lil while. so i clicked on the convo after reading a chapter, and cass was spamming something about a pedo bear. since ling is apparently "LINGY BEAR", i thought it was him. no one bothered elaborating, as far as i could tell. so therefore, Pedo lingy bear it is.

last night, i had a dream for the first time in a while. or should i say 'this morning' and 'night mare'. it started off normal. thats a lie. i was sheena from TOS, and together with my 'party', we went to this mansion located at the back of our school oval, it was huge - the oval - and the grass was dark everywhere. we were about to go into the mansion, when i realised that the person living there [a queen. but irl my auntie from brunei] only wanted me for my summoning powers. so i ran and ran and ran. it was obviously a dream since i was running, and through a bus depot that doesn't exist at that location in front of garbo, and i kept running, looking for my house. but in the end, i went to another mansion to warn Eun-young from spring waltz, and her mother and brother [who i think was kibum in SW]. i actually had to flush myself down a toilet that was oh-so-conviniently located in eunyoung's sister's locker [eun-young doesn't have a sister in SW] and i magically appeared in the garden. i couldn't get into their house normally because the queen built huge grey walls around it. so i warned eun young and sat down, since they were giving me tea. and ilook over to where her mom is, and THE QUEEN WAS THERE. then i woke up.

it might not seem scary the way i tell it, but in my dream, it was all rush rush, hurry hurry, they're going to kill you so run like yo've never run before. i tell you, it was really scary. and in the dark green grass, there were all these cobwebs, which creeped me out further. -shudder- now if only i'd have a nice dream where akanishi loves me. HAHAHA.

anyway, i need dinner. so bai bai.